They make examples of them.
Public hanging sometimes worse.
I know.
But if we succeed and if we somehow make it north, then what? You’d be throwing away everything.
Your inheritance, your social position, your family name, you’d be poor.
You’d be an outcast.
And for what? To help one slave escape when your father owns 300? It was the fundamental question.
And I didn’t have a good answer except the truth.
Because I can’t save 300 people.
But maybe I can save one.
Maybe I can stop one evil thing from happening.
And maybe that’s better than doing nothing.
Why me? You don’t even know me.
Because you’re the one my father’s planning to hurt.
Because I can’t stop him from continuing slavery, but I can try to stop him from breeding you like an animal.
And because I hesitated because I think maybe we both need to escape you from slavery.
Me from a life of complicity in a system I’m starting to realize I can’t morally accept.
Delila studied me with those intelligent eyes that had been trained to hide their intelligence.
You really mean this? Yes.
You’d give up everything to help me escape? Yes.
Even though you barely know me.
Even though I’m just one slave among millions.
Even though it might not make any real difference in the grand scheme.
Yes, because it would make a difference to you.
And right now that feels like the only thing I can actually control.
She was quiet for a long time.
Outside I could hear other enslaved people moving around, preparing evening meals, settling in for the night.
The sun had fully set now and the cabin was lit only by faint moonlight through the window.
Finally, Delilah said, “If we do this, and I’m not saying yes yet, I’m just saying if we’d need to be smart about it.
We’d need to plan carefully.
The judge has connections everywhere in Mississippi.
He’d send people after us.
I know.
And we’d need to move fast.
If he’s planning to bring in a male slave to breed me with, that could happen any day.
When would you want to leave? Give me two days to think about it.
To prepare what little I have to say goodbye to people in a way that doesn’t alert suspicions.
She stood up.
Master Thomas, I don’t fully understand why you’re doing this.
Part of me thinks this is some kind of trap or cruel joke.
But if you’re sincere, if you really mean to help me escape, then I’ll take that chance because you’re right.
What your father’s planning is worse than the risk of running.
I’m sincere.
I swear it.
Then we leave in 2 days, Thursday night, after everyone’s asleep.
Meet me at the stable at midnight.
Bring money, supplies, and those forge travel passes.
I’ll bring what little I have.
I nodded.
Thursday night.
Midnight.
She walked to the cabin door, opened it, then turned back.
Master Thomas.
Thomas, if we do this, if we make it north, what then? What do you expect from me? Nothing.
I expect nothing except that you’d be free.
What you do with that freedom is entirely your choice.
You’re not doing this expecting expecting me to be grateful in certain ways.
expecting me to be your mistress or companion or no, absolutely not.
I’m doing this because it’s right, or at least less wrong than doing nothing.
That’s all.
She studied me for another moment, then nodded.
Thursday night.
Don’t be late, and don’t change your mind.
I left the quarters and walked back to the mansion in the dark, my heart pounding.
What had I just agreed to? I was planning to steal my father’s property because that’s what Delilah was in the eyes of the law property and flee north with her.
If we were caught, I’d be imprisoned.
Delila would likely be killed.
But if we succeeded, if we succeeded, one person would be free.
One woman wouldn’t be forced into the breeding scheme my father had planned.
It wasn’t saving the world.
It wasn’t ending slavery, but it was something.
The next two days were agony.
I avoided my father as much as possible, taking meals in my room, claiming illness.
He didn’t push the issue.
We were still angry with each other, and he likely assumed I needed time to come around to his plan.
I used those two days to prepare.
I went to the bank in Nachez and withdrew nearly all of my trust fund, $800, a substantial sum.
I packed a bag with clothes, books, and necessities.
I studied maps of Mississippi and the roads north.
I practiced my father’s signature on travel passes, getting the loops and flourishes exactly right.
I also wrote letters.
One to my father explaining why I was leaving.
One to Dr.
Harrison thanking him for his professional care.
One to the few friends I’d had over the years saying goodbye.
The letter to my father was the hardest.
Father, by the time you read this, I’ll be gone.
I’m leaving Mississippi and I won’t be returning.