I know this will anger you, disappoint you, and perhaps hurt you.
For that, I’m sorry, but I cannot be part of your plan for Delilah.
I cannot participate in a scheme that treats human beings as breeding stock.
You raised me to value education, reason, and moral principle.
The education you provided has led me to conclusions you won’t like.
Slavery is evil and our participation in it is wrong.
I’m not asking you to understand or approve.
I’m simply telling you that I’ve made my choice.
The Callahan line may end with me, but it will end with whatever dignity I can salvage rather than continue through the moral bankruptcy of your breeding scheme.
I hope someday you’ll understand.
Your son, Thomas.
I sealed the letter and left it on my desk.
Thursday night arrived.
I couldn’t eat dinner.
I lay in bed, fully clothed, listening to the house settle into sleep.
My father retired to his room around .
The servants finished their evening duties by .
By , the mansion was silent.
At quarter to midnight, I grabbed my bag, crept downstairs, and slipped out through the kitchen door.
The stable was dark, lit only by moonlight filtering through gaps in the walls.
I hitched up one of the smaller wagons, a two- horse rig that we used for local travel.
I loaded my bag, some food I’d stolen from the kitchen, blankets, and a canteen of water.
At exactly midnight, Delilah appeared.
She carried a small bundle, everything she owned in the world, probably.
Some clothes, maybe a few personal items.
That was it.
24 years of life reduced to one small bundle.
You came, she said quietly.
Did you think I wouldn’t? I wasn’t sure.
Part of me thought this was all a dream or a trick.
It’s neither.
Are you ready? She looked back at the quarters visible in the distance.
As ready as I’ll ever be.
We climbed into the wagon.
I took the reinss.
I’d driven wagons before, though not often.
Delilah sat beside me, her bundle in her lap.
“Where are we going?” she asked as we started moving.
Northeast to start.
We’ll avoid Nachez.
Too many people who know me.
We’ll head toward Vixsburg, then into Tennessee.
From there, we’ll work our way to Ohio.
Cincinnati has a large free black community.
We can disappear there.
That’s at least 400 miles.
Closer to 500.
It’ll take us 2 weeks, maybe more.
We’ll travel mostly at night, rest during the day in wooded areas off the main roads.
You’ve thought this through.
I had two days.
I did my best.
We rode in silence for a while.
The plantation fell away behind us, and soon we were on the main road heading northeast.
The night was clear, the moon bright enough to see by.
Every sound made my heart race.
Was that a patrol? Was that someone following us? But it was just wind, animals, the normal sounds of a Mississippi night.
After an hour, Delila spoke again.
Thomas, can I call you Thomas? Of course.
We’re not master and slave anymore.
We’re just two people trying to get north.
Thomas, I need to ask you something honestly.
Why are you really doing this? And I don’t want the noble answer about stopping one evil.
I want the real reason.
I thought about that as the horses plotted on.
The real reason? I think I think I’ve spent my entire life being told I’m defective.
That I’m less than a real man because my body doesn’t work right.
That I’m worthless because I can’t produce heirs.
And I’ve internalized that.
I’ve believed it.
I don’t see what that has to do with helping me.
My father’s plan would have used you the same way society has used me, reduced you to your reproductive function, treated you as valuable only for what you could produce.
And I realized I couldn’t participate in doing to someone else what’s been done to me.
Does that make sense? Yes, she said quietly.
It makes perfect sense.
We traveled through the night and into the dawn.