I slowed down.
Still, I walked up the steps.
The door was no longer the dull navy my father had picked because “it hides the dirt.” Now it was an expensive-looking charcoal gray. And where the welcome mat used to be—plain brown, always crooked—there was a fancy one with clean lettering:
HOME SWEET HOME
I knocked anyway.
Not politely.
Not carefully.
I knocked like a son who had been counting down days, like someone who had a right to be there.
The door opened, and the warmth I’d imagined didn’t come rushing out.
Linda stood there.
My stepmother.
Her hair was styled like she’d just come back from a salon. Her blouse looked crisp. And her eyes—those sharp, measured eyes—scanned me from head to toe like I was a problem arriving on schedule.
For one second, I thought she might flinch.
Or soften.
Or at least look surprised.
Instead, her expression stayed flat.
“You’re out,” she said, like she’d just read it on the weather report.
“Where’s my dad?” My voice sounded strange, too loud in the quiet of that porch.
Linda’s mouth tightened, almost like she was annoyed I’d asked.
Then she said, calmly and coldly, “Your father was buried a year ago.”
The words didn’t land right.
Buried. A year ago.
The sentence made no sense, like someone had switched languages in the middle. My mind tried to reject it. I waited for the punchline. The correction. The cruel joke.
But Linda didn’t blink.
“We live here now,” she added. “So… you should go.”
My throat went dry.
“I—” I tried again. “Why didn’t anyone tell me?”
Linda’s lips curved slightly, not a smile—more like satisfaction.
“You were in prison,” she said. “What were we supposed to do? Send you a sympathy card?”
Behind her, the hallway looked changed. Different pictures on the walls. Different furniture visible beyond the entryway. None of my father’s things. No hunting coat hung by the door. No scuffed boots. No familiar smell of cedar and coffee and the lemon cleaner he used on weekends.
It was like my father had been erased.
And Linda was standing in the doorway guarding the eraser.
“I need to see him,” I said, voice cracking. “I need—”
“There’s nothing to see,” she replied. “It’s over.”
Then, before I could force another word out, she closed the door.
Not slammed.
Just closed—slow, deliberate—like she was ending a conversation she’d been tired of for a long time.
I stood there staring at the door, my hand still raised from knocking, like my body hadn’t caught up to what my life had just become.
A year.
My father had been dead for a year.
And I was finding out on a porch like a stranger.
I didn’t remember walking away.
