A year ago, her eyes in this light would have made you think of sadness first. Now they make you think of strength. Not dramatic strength. The ordinary terrifying kind that gets up before dawn, protects a child, studies contracts, and still somehow believes tenderness is worth the labor if it’s clean enough.
“This job,” you say. “This house. Me.” You pause. “I need to know whether you ever felt trapped here.”
She studies your face so long you nearly wish for a board meeting instead.
Then she says, “At the beginning, yes.”
You nod.
The honesty stings. You deserve the sting.
“And now?” you ask.
She glances toward Sofía, then back at you. “Now I feel seen,” she says. “That’s different from safe, but it matters.”
You take that answer seriously because that is what loving women like Carmen requires. Not possession. Not reward. Seriousness.
“I don’t want gratitude from you,” you say. “Or loyalty bought with schools and contracts and all the things I should have understood sooner.”
“Good,” she says.
The wind lifts a strand of her hair. The little girl hums to herself over the chalk drawing.
“What do you want?” she asks.
There are a thousand versions of the wrong answer.
I want you. I need you. You saved me. This house is yours. I can make your life easier. Rich men have been using those sentences as traps since before your grandfather sold his first barrel. You know that now. So you tell her the hardest truth instead.
“I want the chance to know whether what I feel can ever be fair enough to ask you for.”