She had been waiting in the family lounge with my sister while I was in recovery, and the second I saw her face, I felt a rush of relief. Ellie had spent the last nine months preparing for this baby as if she had been handed her own sacred assignment. She had saved allowance money and chore money to buy tiny socks, a stuffed elephant, a soft blue blanket she insisted he needed because “babies should have one thing that’s just theirs.” She had talked to my stomach, read stories to it, and spent whole afternoons sketching ideas for what she called her “big sister welcome plan.” When she stepped into the room, she was smiling with that same bright, wide, earnest joy she had carried all through the pregnancy.
She crossed to the bed in three quick steps, leaned in to see her brother, and then stopped so suddenly it felt like the air changed around us.
“No,” she said. Then louder, sharper, with terror breaking through her voice. “That’s not my brother. That’s not Bobby.”
Jack straightened at once. “Ellie, what?”
“That’s not him, Dad.”
I was exhausted, stitched together, shaking from everything my body had just survived, and I answered too sharply. “Ellie, enough. This is your brother. Stop it right now. You were so excited about him.” She flinched as if I had struck her, turned around without another word, and walked out. Jack looked at me over the baby’s head, clearly unsure whether to go after her or stay. I gave the smallest shake of my head, because I thought what any tired parent would think in that moment. She’s overwhelmed. She’s scared. She just needs time.
I could not have been more wrong.