Then I heard the click.
At first, I thought it was an accident. I pulled on the handle. It wouldn’t budge. Melissa stood on the other side of the glass, arms folded, watching me.
“Melissa!” I shouted. “Open the door!”
She leaned closer and said through the glass, “Maybe a little discomfort will teach you to stop being so weak.”
My stomach dropped. “Are you insane? I’m pregnant!”
She rolled her eyes. “It’s just a few minutes.”
The cold air cut straight through my thin sweater. I started pounding on the glass. “Open it now!”
But Melissa simply walked away.
The wind picked up. My fingers went numb first, then my feet. I kept banging, shouting, crying for Ryan, but music was playing inside and dishes were clattering. Minutes stretched endlessly. My belly tightened painfully, and fear began to claw its way up my throat.
Then a sharp cramp hit low in my abdomen, stronger than anything before, and my knees nearly gave out.
Part 2
I don’t know how long I was out there. Ten minutes? Twenty? Maybe longer. In the cold, time lost all meaning. All I knew was my hands had stopped hurting because I could barely feel them anymore, which scared me more than the pain had. My breath came out in weak bursts, and each cramp in my stomach felt tighter than the last.
I kept thinking about the baby.
I placed both hands over my belly and whispered, “Please, please be okay.” But my voice trembled so much I could hardly hear it.
I pounded on the glass again, weaker this time. Inside, the apartment looked warm and bright, full of movement, completely disconnected from what was happening just a few feet away. I saw Ryan’s mother carrying dishes. I heard laughter through the glass. At one point, I saw Melissa walk past the door without even glancing at me.
That’s when I realized this wasn’t a joke to her. It wasn’t an accident. She knew I was out there. She was choosing to leave me.
My teeth chattered so hard it hurt. My legs felt heavy and unsteady, and another cramp twisted through my lower abdomen, this one so sharp I cried out. I banged again with both fists, panic taking over. “Ryan!” I screamed. “Ryan, help me!”
I must have finally been loud enough, or someone noticed movement, because Ryan’s mother turned toward the balcony. Her face changed instantly. She dropped the dish towel and rushed to the door, pulling at the handle.
It didn’t open.