I didn’t argue. But I also couldn’t shake the truth that settled in my chest: compassion didn’t require disappearing. It didn’t require leaving me in the dark.
Since that day, something between us feels cracked. Not because I’m jealous — I know nothing romantic happened — but because I suddenly realized I don’t want to live feeling like a backup plan, like someone whose feelings can be brushed aside in the name of being “a good person.”
I don’t know if that means divorce… or if I’m being selfish for feeling this way at all. I need clarity. I need advice.