The last conversation I’d had with him was three months earlier. It lasted maybe ninety seconds. He asked if I was okay. I said yes. Then we sat in awkward silence until one of us found a reason to end the call.
I didn’t know it would be the last time I’d ever hear his voice.
I wished I had said something different.
I wished I had said more.
The next morning I returned to the house where I’d grown up for the first time in three years.
It was a four-bedroom colonial in the suburbs, built in 1985, with a wraparound porch and a backyard where my father liked to sit in the evenings with ginger tea while the light faded. It was the sort of house that looked, from the outside, like proof of a happy family.
Marcus was waiting at the front door.
He gave me a one-armed hug, the kind people offer when obligation matters more than warmth.
“Long time, sis,” he said. “You look tired.”
I didn’t answer. I was looking past him—at the Louis Vuitton duffel in the hallway, the golf clubs leaning by the wall, the Gucci loafers at the foot of the stairs.
Marcus had been unemployed for eight months. Mom had mentioned it during one of her guilt-laced updates disguised as family concern.
My childhood bedroom had been turned into his storage room.
The pale blue walls were still there, but my bed was gone. In its place were stacks of designer luggage, shoeboxes, and a flat-screen TV still in the box.
I stood there staring at a collection of luxury items owned by a man with no income and felt something old and cold settle in my chest.
I took over the funeral arrangements.
I called the funeral home, wrote the obituary, contacted relatives, arranged flowers, confirmed catering, and made sure the programs were printed with the right photo—the one of Dad from ten years earlier, before his face began to look permanently worn out.
Marcus handled appearances.
Whenever neighbors arrived with casseroles or condolences, he appeared in doorways wearing grief like a tailored suit—perfectly measured, perfectly timed.
Behind closed doors, though, something else was happening.